Repetitive. The only word I think it's explain enough about what happened lately. Seriously, this is so weary. When you thought you could do anything useful, during that time, you were screwed up and you don't think that you would make it through. Nah, about life again..

So what? I didn't gave up. I just need a bit of inspiration to motivate me to complete this goal. Felt like my commitment for moving one step had been tested by God..

Here is the "rundown" about what happened..

1) I need to make a business plan. means that I need to do lot of things before I started to write it on paper. Like analyze location, market needs, peoples, pros and cons, and bla bla bla. and you know what?

2) I don't have much time, I should think and create something innovative as my college assignments. This isn't easy, I need to make it (almost) perfect so that this product can be made for the project next semester.

3) Family business. This one is seriously hell of my worlds, I can't leave it as I need to learn anything about the system, management, cash flow and so on. Why can't I leave it? Because they (parents) wants me to continue and to keep it running.. and I only have a little time to prepare.

Where I should start? Which one I should do first?

Any inspiration? Any words?

katakatakitakata

aku kira

aku bisa

aku kira

aku bisa

aku kira

aku bisa

berapa kali lagi

kata-kata itu harus terulang

berapa kali lagi

kata-kata itu harus terngiang

aku kira

aku bisa

harus berapa lama

kata-kata itu di ulang

harus berapa lama

kata-kata itu berputar

datar tanpa nada

intonasi rendah tanpa irama

seolah semua biasa, tak berarti

meskipun kata-kata itu lebih bermaksud memaki

tenggelam dan muncul karena kata-kata

memangnya kita ini apa?

same old song

i used to dream about having a great job so that i could make myself, family and people around me happy or at least proud of me. nah, the problem is on the process. i know i know, dream isn't something that you usually reach it like you turn papers on your book. but, this is about me, about me who choose to ruin everything, to break every dream so later i could regret it.

well, life is fair, isn't it?
life gave you a freedom, you may choose in so many different ways to live your life.

but fuck-my-life, really.
how come i choose of being such a lazy-ass and accept every fact that i lived as a jerk?

laler menclok di rel laler menclok di ler laler menclok di rel

kebanyakan rencana itu seperti orang yang.. kebanyakan rencana. iya gitu, nyambung kan? ribet ya di artiinnya? ya itu, maksudnya orang kebanyakan rencana itu mesti ribet. terkadang realis tapi gak bisa menjadikan momen harapan menjadi kenyataan.

ya segitu aja gambaran tentang kepribadian saya belakangan ini. maklum, akibat liburan seminggu dan kurang kerjaan, akhirnya malah banyak nganggur dan ngelamun dan kalo udah gitu inspirasi seringnya dateng dan.. eits! bukan inspirasi, seringnya daydreaming ngimpi ngayal dan mepet2 itu lah. salah? seharusnya nggak dan bisa saja iya, aku salah. *bentar ngambil minum dulu*

oke kembali lagi,

dan sekian curhatan #random yang jelas ini.

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