pieces

damn! it's a hell for me when i being mellow
really, watching my LCD screen and daydreaming about something that i really don't like to talk about and many things inside it.

feels like i'm missing something
losing pieces by pieces inside my head
something that i couldn't see,
but something that i once feel.

or am i just wondering?
about what is going on around me
while my eyes watching another spaces
vacant spaces..

i believe it's just me
ya, it's just another boring trick because of loneliness..

apart from laughing

I never mean to do that
It's just me got tired..
tired to endure everything that came to my life
may i ask you for a bit understanding?

It's been a long time I'm not crying..
It's been a long time I'm not complaining this much..
I know I'm weak..
But i don't know, when this world will give me a break?