blowing my head off

well, lately there's many things disturbed me. feels like you have something to do, important things to do, but you are now stuck and can't go anywhere and even you can't do anything. blank, it's suddenly *poof* from your head when you were going to start thinking about it. absentmindedly thinking of nothing, no directions or whatever. and see? even i'm blabbering and making no sense here.

am i just bored here? no, i don't think i'm bored with my life in here. or maybe i just need an extra time for refreshing? IMO, i don't. then what? skip it, i'm not going to find the answer tho.

maybe i need to off to my bed right now. sleeping somehow could make you feel better uh and it will much much better if you had a nice dream! *asa!*

and, good night Surabaya. :)

online online~

udah 3 tahun ya?
iya, 3 tahun ini hidupku selalu berhubungan dengan laptop. bukan pekerjaan, tapi kehidupan! bisa kan bayangin ato bahkan udah tau, hidup di depan laptop itu seperti apa? iya, hidupnya isinya cuman di depan laptop buat online or do something that is not useful. hingga saat laptop rusak..

ya, aku baru kali ini ngerasa kecanduan yang kebangetan. padahal saat aku kecanduan rokok aku gak pernah sepusing ini kalo ga ada rokok. tapi pas laptop rusak, baru 2 hari aku udah jadi makin berantakan. aku butuh kehidupan yang nyata! bisa gila lama-lama di depan laptop terus.

ini bukan karena si deli gak bisa online juga benernya, tapi emang udah waktunya aja aku coba move on a bit dari tempatku duduk sekarang. kalo dulu online dalam sebulan ada 28 hari, aku pengen 15 hari buat aku ngejalanin aktifitasku di dunia nyata. ahh, pasti menyenangkan.. gak ansos kan jadinya kalo kek gitu?

ya, aku harus bisa untuk menahan rasa pengen online.
ya..
dan aku masih aja duduk di depan laptop sekarang.
daaahhh